Health problems I can’t seem to fix. I miss my high frequencies in my left ear so much. The entire left side of my body is in various dysfunction. Nerve pain running down into my left foot. Infections below my teeth. I don’t even know. I’m broke, unemployed, and it doesn’t feel like music is gonna pay me an actual income anyway.
Worse part is lack of friends or resources to have any fun. I’m so focused on my body that i can’t enjoy things. All these problems I can’t fix add up. I worry about how I’m gonna last as I get older. I feel empty and now just more alone than ever before in my entire life.